hmm. haven blog for days already. as wad i wrote in my j0urnal. i`ve been slacking for quite sometime and its time to worj my brains again hahas. lolx

nth muchh i felt tat e world is spinning veri fast everithin seems to change friends esp. i suddenly felt left out between them n i dunch know y. looking backk on how gd term we are. laughin, being crazy together everithin seems to dissappear.. i wondered. making new frens help? hahas now i also felt left out again. i rather be a l0ner than goin out been left out. its nort a gd thing. i shld`nt hab eaten luch wit them yep. its like so so weird. e 4 of us r close frens. darlings. but now. onli 3 of them but i`m fine wit it. i`ll get use to it. i did`nt say its their fault but somehow felt tat they dun trust me like wad they do in e past. i might b kind of sensitive but i dunno wad ur are thinking abt its just a different way of expressing yourself n myself. reflecting on how i react to things. i seems to lost quite a num of thing accompany of frens, lort n lorts of things, time, fun? now me n her also seems to drift apart i`m wondering shld i go this sat is like wads e point if onli you 2 tok abt things tat i dunno tats y i felt left out i`ll think abt it. life is somehow complicated. yup. i shan`t tok muchh abt it animore. i just hab to live on. tats my change in my life. - mel

mel and lem

hahas life just continue between me n him i just want him to study its his O`s i want him to score well. pass wit flying colours n i know you would`nt dissapoint me rite? remember e things you promise me? i will alwas remember. suddenly felt tat he f0reva by my side. i would alwas hab him wit me. my gurdian angel? hehees. i`m waiting for his call now. i heart you!